Simping For Hina

I know that Hina is intelligent, one of her most spectacular qualities. But even trying to contend at that level all the time is outrageous, trying to just get smarter is exhausting. I try and I am constantly tired of it. For her, it seems effortless and easy. 

But I want to spend a couple of thoughts on just being degenerate, having fun without a care for what you say or do. It is the feeling of childhood, the freedom to act without regard.

Hina falls into this so naturally, as well, not everything needing to be a revolutionary thought, but something just to enjoy. Especially the dumb things, something to just enjoy and laugh at/about.

Can't say I enjoy everything I do, it seems, though that Hina has a smile one her face at any opportunity. I am glad that she can smile, and it is one of the reasons that I smile.

I was talking to a friend about what it is like to feel as if the person you're with no longer loves you. It is the little things that stop happening: their excitement wanes, their eyes drain rather than sparkle, and above all, things feel obligatory rather than wanting.

I feel this sometimes, not for Hina toward me, but me toward Hina. And it isn't to say I don't love her, as that will never change; It doesn't always stay there, as sometimes getting up and going to work is the hardest part of the day.

But I think this is where love remains, at least where it feels different than other emotions. I have seen other compare it to depression, a mental state rather than an emotion or a feeling. It is important, at least, to know that the feeling will shift, it won't always feel like it is around, sometimes it will be hard to love and other times easier.

But, even when I feel like it is going away, the love that acts as an emotion, I do know that there is no one else I'd rather go through this than with her. I don't know what love is best described as, but I think my love for Hina is something like appetite: I always need it, always have it, I just don't always notice it at every moment. But I am glad to say that it is something incredible to have in my life, that even when I feel as if I it is not there, I still have that urge to love her.

I came to this site because I was interested in YGO; I met Hian through this site, but I never really got if she liked YGO or not.

I have grown away from the card game and this idea hasn't come up, but it is something that I don't really know about Hina. Even now, there is still mystery in our relationship; and even if there wasn't, everything that I already know is still something that I would gladly hear from her lips again!

It is Thursday, my dudes!

Recently, Hina and I have been talking about words we have not come across before. For myself, these words are obscure (nervure, erethism, endagomy), and I find such words to be fascinating. Lo and behold, Hina calls me out for my vocabulary, because of course she would know such obscure words like these. Maybe I am just not well read.

But part of our conversations are just the words that we find, even if I am belittled for being obtuse and dumb. It is something that is fun, having something so mundane to share with someone that I find joy being around. Now, the book I am reading is a rather stupid book in the scheme of it, but I find pleasure in that too. Hina, however, wouldn't give the book a second glance.

What I am getting to is: it is nice to share something with someone even if not everything is done together, and that really gives an extra pep in the step for these hobbies.

Have I ever recognized the amount of things Hina enjoys?

It reminds me of the Renaissance men, a person who is a master of many who still have more they want to master. It isn't even something so far reaching as the sciences, the arts. While these are still her interests, there is something more down to earth: she loves the common things, too. Pokemon, Metaphor: ReFantazio; there's even so much joy that comes from stupid memes. For some reason, she loves Spongebob to make a point, but it still always brings me a smile. :) 

Was gonna post a Hina appreciate status today. She is still amazing.

Let's appreciate Nyx this week: tossing the water out of an already sinking shi[t]p is still better than letter the ship just sink. That is some effort, more than I would do.

 

I forgot last's week Hina Appreciation post.

Hina is simply wonderful, someone who brings both care and humor into the world just through being who she is.

I think, for this, it is best to appreciate how simple it, the happiness she brings into the world, is. 

Effortless, just done, and without a second thought.

That's a quality everyone desires, one that she brings to people.
 

I am about a day late on my weekly Hina posts.

But, with her, time is meaningless, as she seems to be something that radiates forever.

A world without Hina would be a world ending, and she makes it worthwhile to be in the one right now.

I pride myself on the person I have become. But I wouldn’t have become this person without the type of person Hina has been to me. 
 

I can’t be thankful enough for having her in my life. She is something else, something amazing. 

Let's see how long this lasts:

The best thing to come out of this site was meeting Hina. She is one of the best people to ever inhabit this world.