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[Ren✧]

Matt, I don't think I really have the right to call you a friend, and even though you'll probably never read this, there is something I want to say to you...actually a few things I want to say to you.

 

The first, is that I am sorry. I honestly didn't realize that you were in such a bad way, and there were many times that I teased you in your status bars. This has made me realize that sometimes it isn't a joking matter and that I don't know everything about anyone. I know I probably caused you a little bit of grief, but I hope that you know my points were made all in fun and I am sorry if what I said upset you. 

 

The second, is a moment of recognization. I want you to know that even if I didn't ever comment on what you wrote, I would always pop in and read a few chapters. I want you to know that you are an amazing artist...because that's what we writers are...we're artists. And your pieces are amazing. I want ever forget the first thing of yours that I read. A short story taking place in a cafe. It was fantastic and it was my inspiration to start writing again. So while you have had those that tutored and inspired you, know that you have been and are a light of inspiration.

 

The last thing I want to say, is that I am happy for you. I am glad that you are taking a step to change your life because quite recently I've learned how that feels. That moment when you realize you have to a stand and not wait for someone to make it for you is quite possibly the most freeing moment a person can have and I am glad that you can experience that. While I am glad that you are trying to change your life, I am sad to see you go. I am sad for this community and I know your absence will be felt. 

 

So while I don't know if I can call you a friend, I know I can call you a good person. So whatever you are going through I wish you the best of luck and I know that you will be able to conquer any demon that dares plague and that you will be able to overcome any obstacle in your way. Farewell.

[Astolfo]

 

Matt..... You were one of the best people here.... I'll miss you sorely...... Hope you will come back one day......

Godspeed...

[TegamiBachi25]

Mines is Feb.7 but already past

I meant my birthday

[Astolfo]

Mines is Feb.7 but already past

 

 

I meant my birthday

Wrong section, and look at all the people who care:

You just disrupted a tragedy. Shame on you. ;~;

[Legend Zero]

Wrong section, and look at all the people who care:

You just disrupted a tragedy. Shame on you. ;~;

Not to be rude, but this is a thread for everyone. Anyone can use it, not just Matt and friends.

 

Matt, I'm not going to make a long post since I don't know you as well as everyone else. You know you're an awesome member and you'll always have a place to come back to.

[Reinforce]

Matt, I'm sure you know this by now from everybody now already, but you will be missed. You brought something to the Creative Writing section that kept dragging me back there to read stuff even when I was doubting everything there myself. I'm probably one of those randoms you can't remember, since the only real way I've made myself known to you was through your stories, but I'm sure that both myself and so many others will remember you, and whether you do ever come back here or not, we will remember you and all you have done for this place. Good luck with your life and hopefully you'll end up getting yourself sorted out and getting rid of those demons that are plaguing you. I'll miss you, and thanks for everything you've done that I've been lucky enough to get to see, both with the stories and your Hunger Games. Goodbye my friend.

[Synchronized]

Though I'm sad I didn't get a mention, gonna miss you dude.

 

You were my inspiration to get back into writing & it's helped me tremendously.

 

Good luck with everything dude, I know what depression is like as I'm still struggling with my own but I'm sure you'll get through it better than ever.

[Kazooie]

Well, it's probably pretty hollow compared to Matt's honestly, but I'm leaving too. Looking at how funking horrible today was made me realize I have zero reason to stay on YCM.

 

I don't do anything here. I don't make an impact, good or bad. To me, that's just a good signal I should leave. Due to this, I will be cutting contact out from all people I met one YCM with one exception, and I'm sure it's fairly obvious who that exception is.

 

I do want to mention some people, not as indepth as how Matt did, again comparing this to his, but I figure I might as well, considering there were some people I could stand on YCM.

 

Neo, I didn't really know you well. I mean, I kinda only met you during that failed CC Mod election thing. But for the short time I talked to you, I'm glad I did. You're a great guy.

 

DL, you were kinda my original friend not counting Black. I only had a few people I could have considered close to me, but you were one of them. You certainly had your problems with Black, but I still consider you a close friend.

 

Lily, I remember the few weeks you spent trying to ruin my life. Considering how close you came, I'm surprised I ever talked to you after that. But, I'm glad I did. You really did change, and some of the times I talked to you after that really helped me get my head on straight.

 

Dem, this is weird. I'm not really sure what to say, but I know I have to mention you. We're so alike in so many ways, and I just want you to know I'll always be cheering you on. What you said on your profile about me really means a lot, and I hope and pray that everything turns out well for you, cause you need it just as much as I do.

 

Agro, this is kinda strange for me, but I could tolerate you. Sure, you were on Chris's level when it came to ego sometimes, but overall you were a nice guy. Aggro format still sucks btw.

 

Chris, even though you're out of the loop of the game now, I learned a lot by watching you play against Lily, Byakk and others during older formats. It might seem silly, but I learn a lot better from watching then I do from playing. I guess this doesn't mean as much as the others, but I would have liked to think I was at least decent at theory compared to most of the other players on YCM.

 

Striker, I just felt as though I should apologize to you. I wasn't exactly nice to you in the past, and even though you weren't always the most tolerable person, you have attempted to make it up in past year or so.

 

Armz, you are hilarious. We never really talked outside of Powerforce while it was around, and even then we didn't much, but the fact that you are a Drifblim, the evolution of one of my favorite pokemon makes it to where you deserve a mention.

 

I feel like I'm forgetting someone, and if I am I'll try to contact you in the future to apologize for it, but for now I want to get out.

 

I could do more, but they would be a whole lot more negative then they would be positive. I could write one for Sora, Chance, Zazubat, Ragnarok, and a couple others, but I won't. Instead, I'll put this here.

 

I was known for all of /two/ things here on YCM. My relationship with Black, who is easily the best person in my life, and one post I made. I want to put that post here, simply because it embodied both of those two things.

 

 

 

 

For me... The biggest thing I hate about suicide isn't the act itself... It's how people may KNOW about it, but not even try to help.

I mean... When I first started being active and got on Duel Monsters Genesis, I was... Fairly suicidal myself (Still am sometimes) and it was no fun... I couldn't enjoy life, school was miserable, I always felt alone, and it was all around one of the most miserable times of my life.

Well, I didn't say anything about, to anyone online or offline, and I just went on. Eventually, it got to the point where I didn't want to be around people, so I would just run off from the main group on DMG. No one noticed, no one cared, I was alone and I was slowly convincing myself it was a good idea. No one cared when I was gone then, why would they care if I was gone after that? I didn't have many friends at school, and at home... Well, home was the one time I was happy, but that was mainly because of the internet.

Either way, around February of 2011, I started making plans. I had a place I could run off too... I started writing a note. One to my family, and one to my friends online... I went through multiple drafts... All of them had different messages, but the same base idea.

Except for the message to one person. You all know him as Yuzuru Otonashi or Black. I was gonna tell him that I had feelings for him... And I would miss him more then anything.

During all this, I kept getting on DMG and being around Black made it harder and harder for me to think about doing it, but I thought I would be happier. My feelings for him kept growing and growing, making it harder for me to be happy with the message I wrote, making me write it over and over so I could tell him how special he really was to me...

So March rolls around and around the 15th I finished the final draft... I was gonna send it on the 22nd of March, then I could end it.

On the 19th of March, Black told me he loved me.

Here I am.

What I'm getting at is, Black didn't even KNOW he was helping me most of the time. As far as he knew, I was just unhappy and needed to talk to someone. But he cared enough to listen to me.

We fell in love, and we're still together today. Things can be tough, and I do lapse back to... That, but I know I can trust Black to help snap me out of it, along with my other friends.

If you DO know someone who's suicidal, don't convince yourself you can't do anything to help them. You might be way more wrong then you ever knew.

If you ARE suicidal... Don't give up yet. Things may be hard... They may seem impossible... But they'll get better. You just need help... It doesn't have to b someone you love. It can be a close friend... You just need someone to help you. I wouldn't have been able to do it without Black.

I literally would be dead if it wasn't for him.

 

 

Maybe it is silly of me to put this here, but... I feel as though if I can help even one person with this post, then my time on YCM was worth it.

 

I never achieved anything here. I never won any major events, I never stood a chance at becoming a mod, and even then I don't know if I could have even been a good one, and I certainly didn't make many friends or make a good impression.

 

But maybe this one post was all I needed to make.

[Volcanism]

You made a great impression on me in my YCML match today. I'm sure you will be missed greatly.

[Simping For Hina]

You made a great impression on me in my YCML match today. I'm sure you will be missed greatly.

What the hell is YCML? YCM Legends things? Please link so I feel less stupid.

 

 

 

HEY KAEDA. YOU KNOW. It is extremely disappointing that you don't say goodbye properly. Goodbye means so much. Like it means that your stay and everything meant something to you and the rest of us. Bye is the farewell that shapes everything to how much you are going to be hurt leaving this place.

Please, just type out Goodbye so we know how much you care. If you care about us at all. I promise I won't hit on Black while you're gone. (Even though he is too innocent on this site) I do say that you were awesome in our affairs. We had times where it was completely silent but not awkward and you were at lease very helpful in the most minor ways that showed how kind you were. Your kindness on one of your best traits.

 

So as I say goodbye to you, I have to say. Stay the way you are and stay with Black because you two are wonderful together. :P

[Nathanael D. Striker]

*cries a bit*

 

Caeda, I'll miss you for sure and thank you for that. People, let's give a toast to Caeda.

 

*raises a bottle of root beer to toast Caeda*

[Volcanism]

Yeah it's YCM Legends in the TCG Tournament section. Links are for the weak.

[Agro]

This is my song for Matt and Caeda, I hope you like it, cause it almost made me tear up as I wrote this post:

 

Agro, this is kinda strange for me, but I could tolerate you. Sure, you were on Chris's level when it came to ego sometimes, but overall you were a nice guy. Aggro format still sucks btw.

 

Agro format for me will always be remembered as the joke format that I got everyone to take seriously~

 

Also, I feel happy by that comment, and you should know that every time I get a compliment, the ego shrinks, not vice-versa. Yes, it doesn't make sense and it's totally weird, but it works. Somehow.

 

Anyway, you were great. You and Black are forever and always my favorite internet couple and I hope I'll get to hear about you two meeting up sometime in the future. While you did get heated on me and put me down once in a while, you were always generally kind to me, and I really did appreciate that. I wish you the best of luck in all your future endeavors and I'll definitely miss you around here.

 

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As for Matt, well, it's really a shame that I didn't get to know you better than I did, or that I've never had enough patience to sit down and read a story on an internet site. I must say that I did enjoy reading what of yours I managed to get to. You're a great writer and the Creative Writing section will surely not be the same without you around. Hey, if you ever write a book, come on back just once just to let us in on it. I'm a lot better reading stuff when it's physically in my hands.

 

And if you have a skype, you better as hell add me as well.

[Kazooie]

Well, I have to say thank you to everyone for the warm response. I'll admit, I was never too fond of being on YCM from how I felt I never made an impact. I felt like I was just here, taking up space.

 

But, while I was thinking about why I was having trouble leaving, I realized what the problem was thanks to Daemon. I was doing it all wrong. There is only one way I can leave YCM and be content with it.

 

http://youtu.be/zIFV8UUs1-c

 

I thought I heard it
I even thought I felt it
Now it starts to shake within my chest
I thought it would come soon
The new day passes through thousands of mornings
I thought it was waiting
I even thought it was calling out
My soul is shaking
I thought I found it
Like millions of dreams the day can vanish
I watched it fade
I waved it good-bye
“Thank you”

 

I'm not just leaving, I'm fading. Whatever I did, whomever I helped, it was enough. 

 

Thank you YCM. I met my husband here. I met some wonderful people, and less than wonderful. My life isn't perfect, but I can leave contently.

 

Goodbye.

[Gαr]

This is way too similar to Angel Beats.

 

Oh, here come the feels and tears.

[Simping For Hina]

EVERYONE CLAP FOR CAEDA. SHE IS THE ONLY PERSON, besides Matt, WHO CAN PULL OF THE PERFECT FAREWELL.

welp, until mine.

[Raelen]

Hi all,

 

I used to be active on YCM a long time ago from 2008 - 2010 and every once and a while, I log back on to see how things have changed. I left rather quietly. I became more and more disinterested and separated from YCM and the community, commenting less and less frequently until I finally chose to leave and move on. I made some small impact on the forums but I was never one of the 6-star movers and shakers. Unfortunately, by the time I left the forum, I was only really known by two or three members.

 

I read both Matt's and Kanade Otonashi's goodbyes and it brought back some nostalgic feelings of my time here. You both sound like wonderful members and great people and I wish I could have known you. By leaving, you often miss out on meeting new members and even with your friends who stick around, names and avatars are changed so that, when you do come back for a day, you feel lost and out of place. You don't know anyone and you look for a familiar anime face in vain.

 

It sounds like both of you have made large contributions to the forum in one way or another, Matt with your stories, Kanade with your willingness to share a personal story that has a possibility to help others going through depression. In your time here, you have made YCM a vibrant place and have created connections and honed newly dicovered talents. I wish I had created such an important and meaningful imprint on the YCM community before I had left.

 

But don't get me wrong, there is a time in a YCMember's life when a change is needed, when you need to focus on your future and your surroundings. You will go on to use your experiences here to good use in the outside, "real" world, and some relationships will stay with you after you say goodbye. However, feel free to return, if just for a while. It's nice to walk down memory lane and try to find old friends. You will never truly leave this place, or perhaps more accurately, this place will never truly leave you. And no, this is not Soviet Russia.

 

So, goodbye Matt and Kanade Otonashi. You will be missed and remembered. The best thing about YCM is that it is always waiting if you wish to visit for a few minutes. Perhaps this too is my official goodbye, 3 or 4 years late. Though you may very well not know me, I love coming back here to see the imagination, creativity, community, hilarity and sympathy that this newer generation has. Your day to leave will come, as it comes for all of us, but until then, enjoy, create, laugh and love. You will look back on these days with fondness and a wistful sadness. Goodbye YCM.

 

-Raelen

[Gαr]

Welcome back and goodbye, my friend.

[Silent Omega]

Woosh. Kablam.

 

And I, a not so famous/infamous member of YCM, have returned!

 

Oh, how the years go by. it's been about three years or so since I've last been -fully- active here. A sudden flurry of memories, flooding my entire mind and I just couldn't help but to visit my old favorite forum. Then again, this was the first and last/only forum I was truly active in. So how is YCM these days? I see only a few familiar faces (okay, not really, I just looked at my friends list and saw who was recently online) but I remember all (not really) of my old friends here! And Zero! You're still here, huh? Wonderful! Talk about a dedicated moderator. I remember you gave me a warning after I posted in a shut down (not locked) topic! Oh, those were the good old days. We...never really talked that much. Oh well! You're a familiar face so I shall simply say, "It's good to see you again!" or something.

 

Oh, YCM. I remember your old layout. I remember the old RP forum. I remember the wonderful events and friends that were involved in this place. I used to love YCM. I still do, but I used to as well (Who gets that reference, by the way?). I love it all! Even if the RP forum still seems too strict for me! How are the old members? The new members? How are you finding this place so far? This place might be your first forum or your bajillionth. It doesn't matter. You'll discover that this great place is truly wonderful and you'll make friends as you explore every inch and corner of this place until you make your own footprints for others to discover and follow!

 

I discovered my love for RPing and writing here. I improved my english skills and refined my creative writing 'talent'! I may have made some impacts on the community (probably not, I just want to make myself feel better) with my amazingly wonderful super awesome attempts at RPing like a professional! Fenrir, Kuja/Renji/Fredrik, my other top RPing buddies (whose names have escaped my mind's grasp)! What about Dark? I remember he was an interesting member of General. Am I straying too far off-topic with my return introduction (is that what it's called? Is there even a topic to begin with?) or shall I stay on this path? Oh, why would I ask?

 

Anyways, let us conclude this amazing heart-wrenching return and calm down, please, no need to applaud. I simply wish to know how has YCM been the past three years? Any major changes? The last thing I remember was the new layout.

[Aix]

Woosh. Kablam.

 

And I, a not so famous/infamous member of YCM, have returned!

Welcome back, even though I don't know you!

 

Awesome, another RPer!

[Xand]

I am returning if only maybe for a short while...idk yet.

[Aix]

I am returning if only maybe for a short while...idk yet.

It's always great to have returning members. Enjoy your stay!

[Xand]

It's always great to have returning members. Enjoy your stay!

^w^ Thanks!

[Agro]

I was gonna write a long-ass speech upon deciding this, but this'll do.

 

I'm currently getting out of the game: My friend is selling all my cards, so I figure the largest amount of time I spend on this site will soon not have such a large slice of my life.

 

Alongside that, there's only a few reasons I stick around here, and really, they aren't much and I find myself merely waiting for something to happen most of the time.

 

I'm not sure how many of you care about whether I'm here or not. Hell, I'm sure many of you would be glad to see me go.

 

Whether you do or do not, however, no longer bears any merit to me.

 

I bid you adieu. Au Revoir~

[Cherz]

Aggro, I wuv you even if you didn't get to know me. I shall miss you. Good bye Aggro. Remember Cherry pop, kay?