Thar Posted November 17, 2014 Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 Don't you agree? EDIT: I've recently been VERY moody, and just now (going back from when I started work today) I've been having homicidal thoughts. This seems to fit with the inverse feeling of me having suicidal thoughts years ago, and considering how depressed I might have felt back then, I feel somewhat the same way right now. I'm scared. I really am. It may just be a thought, but I'm feeling it in my bones. I'm not a violent person, but in my thoughts, I'm a psychopathic killer who can't help himself. I'm literally shaking at the thought, and I don't know how to feel about it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LordCowCowCowCowCowCowCowCow Posted November 17, 2014 Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 Maybe. But you kinda. Look...like...I don't know... SUPER happy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thar Posted November 17, 2014 Author Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 Maybe. But you kinda. Look...like...I don't know... SUPER happy. I am. After a stressful day at work, a good amount of vodka makes me feel SO relieved. Not that I'm promoting the consumption of alcohol in any way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Smear Posted November 17, 2014 Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 everyone has homocidal thoughtskinda normal actuallybut if it gets too bad you should prob look for a therapist Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thar Posted November 17, 2014 Author Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 everyone has homocidal thoughts kinda normal actually but if it gets too bad you should prob look for a therapist I'm considering it, but I'm not sure how to approach it. I'm worried that if it becomes too prominent, my parents would find out and start worrying about me. I don't want that to happen. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Smear Posted November 17, 2014 Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 I'm considering it, but I'm not sure how to approach it. I'm worried that if it becomes too prominent, my parents would find out and start worrying about me. I don't want that to happen.It'd be a lot better to get counselling and see a therapist than to worry about your parents getting concerned about you. You may not want it to happen but your parents are going to worry about you no matter what, so you might as well get some therapy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thar Posted November 17, 2014 Author Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 I don't want them to worry regardless. Their life is bliss even after 23 years, and I'm making that easy for them nowadays. But I'm naturally selfless to the point where any trace of inconvenience for them feels like a burden, and if I were to even show a sign of psychological imbalance outside of my Aspberger's, I feel like they'll go out of their way to help me, which in itself is appreciative, but feels like I'm too much of a toll on their lives. I feel like I should handle this on my own, but if they try to assist me, then I'll feel dependent and even MORE desperate. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LordCowCowCowCowCowCowCowCow Posted November 17, 2014 Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 Whoa wait did this s*** just get srs? Did I miss that edit? O.o Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thar Posted November 17, 2014 Author Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 Whoa wait did this s*** just get srs?\ Did I miss that edit? O.o The edit was me realizing that a joke thread might actually be serious. The intent of it was my indication of worry for my irl self. Yet on another note, it may just be me overreacting. However, I can't deny my thoughts of homicide. Realistically, though, I would never do such a thing, but the thoughts have been growing more severe with my stress and frustration of everything, and the overlap is what's driving me over the edge. I apologize to anyone who may be disturbed by this, but I feel like I need to express it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LordCowCowCowCowCowCowCowCow Posted November 17, 2014 Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 The edit was me realizing that a joke thread might actually be serious. The intent of it was my indication of worry for my irl self. Yet on another note, it may just be me overreacting. However, I can't deny my thoughts of homicide. Realistically, though, I would never do such a thing, but the thoughts have been growing more severe with my stress and frustration of everything, and the overlap is what's driving me over the edge. I apologize to anyone who may be disturbed by this, but I feel like I need to express it. Hmmm... Hmmm.... *hugs* Don't worry, I assume it's kinda late? These thoughts, negative, seemingly horrible, thoughts. They happen quite often to people. Especially when they are in some way not themselves. Like if they're tired, or stressed, or drinking. I am certain you wouldn't try and harm someone. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Thar Posted November 17, 2014 Author Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 I am certain you wouldn't try and harm someone. I would never, and I'm confident of that. They're just thoughts, and the only struggle is my own superstition. This might just be something that I can sleep on, but if it persists the following night, I'll be sure to seek some professional help. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Big Lez Posted November 17, 2014 Report Share Posted November 17, 2014 Charles Manson. He talked about his mind being free. A free mind can basically think anything without being scared of it. Well he did some weird stuff because he wasnt scared of his thoughts and was capable of executing them. Being scared of thoughts like this is actually good thing, so there you go. You're way healthier than you thought you'd be EDIT: i just realised how funny it looks when a guy named "Mr. Drugs" replies to a Thread called "[...] i need help" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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