Its downer thread time

[hypebeast]

Can we have a thread about our worries, insecurities and imperfections so we can dwell on them forever?

 

Im afraid of being alone, I don't wanna wake up one day and feel like nobody likes me anymore. I also feel like I need to get bigger and bigger every week or else that week was a failure, because I want to be better than everyone.

 

Im constantly looking at the mirror and telling myself how handsome I am and how great I will be someday, but deep down inside, buried real deep, I feel like I'm actually hideous and there's not much I can do about it other than not think about it; and its actually working really well.

[Thar]

 

But seriously, I'm worried that I'll never make any irl friends... and move out of my parents' house.

[hypebeast]

 

But seriously, I'm worried that I'll never make any irl friends... and move out of my parents' house.

 

Who needs friends anyway?

[Thar]

Who needs friends anyway?

 

Someone who's bored with his life.

[hypebeast]

Someone who's bored with his life.

 

Then make friends. You're the only one stopping yourself.

[goddamnit names are a pain]

Worries? That I'm going nowhere in life. That I'll just wonder and wonder all throughout my life and never quite be anything with a firm shape/grip. Not 100% bad, but still...

 

I worry that my own ignorance will come back to bite me. I worry about how I interact with people. I worry about interacting with people. I'm afraid that I'll just keep being alone, as I have been. I think I'm afraid to call people friends. I feel like I could vanish and not a single soul would care, bar my immediate family. I worry that I am nothing. I worry that I'll never have a lover or anything like that. I worry that I'll eventually cave to peer pressure. I worry about what I will be doing in the future. I fear that my interests and hobbies really are stupid and a waste of time. 

 

Imperfections? I mask all of this with a coat of arrogance…I have a short temper…I am very indecisive…I don't commit to things/keep up with commitments….the list continues. 

 

 

This is a downer thread but I just wanted to say that if you think you look good, that's all that matters =P

[hypebeast]

Worries? That I'm going nowhere in life. That I'll just wonder and wonder all throughout my life and never quite be anything with a firm shape/grip. Not 100% bad, but still...

 

I worry that my own ignorance will come back to bite me. I worry about how I interact with people. I worry about interacting with people. I'm afraid that I'll just keep being alone, as I have been. I think I'm afraid to call people friends. I feel like I could vanish and not a single soul would care, bar my immediate family. I worry that I am nothing. I worry that I'll never have a lover or anything like that. I worry that I'll eventually cave to peer pressure. I worry about what I will be doing in the future. I fear that my interests and hobbies really are stupid and a waste of time. 

 

Imperfections? I mask all of this with a coat of arrogance…I have a short temper…I am very indecisive…I don't commit to things/keep up with commitments….the list continues. 

 

 

This is a downer thread but I just wanted to say that if you think you look good, that's all that matters =P

 

This is so true. But then I look at all the people who use fedoras and trenchcoats and fingerless gloves and think theyre so suave and take it back.

[goddamnit names are a pain]

Trenchcoats and fedoras are freaking cool though.

Hell, the clothes just add on to what you really look like. I'm really just concerned with if they fit, match, and my face/hair look fine.

 

Man, I want to get all 1930s-ish up in this piece and dress like something straight outta Baccano one day.

[Thar]

I'm too short for trenchcoats and my head's too big for fedoras.

 

Let that soak in.

[hypebeast]

Trenchcoats and fedoras are freaking cool though.

Hell, the clothes just add on to what you really look like. I'm really just concerned with if they fit, match, and my face/hair look fine.

 

Man, I want to get all 1930s-ish up in this piece and dress like something straight outta Baccano one day.

 

lol

 

 

I'm too short for trenchcoats and my head's too big for fedoras.

 

Let that soak in.

 

thats a good thing.

[Tentacruel]

I'm caught between insecurity and laziness.  I don't care enough to change.

 

That, and deep down, I despise people.  It's much easier to not care if people like you if you have a superiority complex.  

[goddamnit names are a pain]

I'm caught between insecurity and laziness.  I don't care enough to change.

 

That, and deep down, I despise people.  It's much easier to not care if people like you if you have a superiority complex.  

Despising people is not a flaw =T

I refuse to acknowledge it as so…it's a blessing

 

Laziness is a huge issue with me too…except, does it really matter? I mean, when you have school and you get home you have the right to not want to do anything…right? xD

[Tentacruel]

Despising people is not a flaw =T

I refuse to acknowledge it as so…it's a blessing

 

Laziness is a huge issue with me too…except, does it really matter? I mean, when you have school and you get home you have the right to not want to do anything…right? xD

 

I mean instead of being like, "I need to look better so senpai will notice me."  I'm like, "SENPAI IS PROBABLY A WHORE ANYWAY"

[goddamnit names are a pain]

I mean instead of being like, "I need to look better so senpai will notice me."  I'm like, "SENPAI IS PROBABLY A WHORE ANYWAY"

Is it a superiority complex to not think that you're better than everyone, and instead that most of the people around you are just incredibly low?

 

But lol@boldtext

That's…an interesting take on it, I suppose. 

I know this is an example but people really shouldn't notice you for just your looks. I mean, sure, it can help…but really, come on.

If you look ugly enough they'll notice, trust me

[Agro]

But then I look at all the people who use fedoras and trenchcoats and fingerless gloves and think theyre so suave and take it back.

Trenchcoats and fedoras are freaking cool though.

wut

 

[goddamnit names are a pain]

wut

 

lel get rekt pokemanz

[Flash Flyer - Sakura]

wut

 

And yet I don't even wear the ones I bought in X. Oh wait, I only wear them when I feel hipster enough to do it.

 

OT: I worry about not passing Physics 272 [right now, I somewhat dislike it; especially factoring the exam tomorrow and the book/professor aren't exactly helpful at times] and Calc 3 (after having to repeat the first two a couple of times, I rather not do this again).

 

I also want to be taller (5'8 isn't bad, but 2-3 inches more would be nice) and get friends IRL; pretty much a loner for the most part. (Think I elaborated on this in that video AMA and the other thread).

[GOATSNAKE]

I was born with micropenis and gynecomastia. gg no re.

[hypebeast]

I decided to delete this post and replace it with this message cause it was too stupid and embarrassing lmao.

[Northern Sage]

I get incredibly worried about anything at the slightest incentive. Our cats not being home for a day or so? Must have been hit by a car. Someone being more than a couple of minutes late? Must have been involved in an accident. Or murdered.
It's kind of a minor thing, but still.
I also.keep worrying that how I behave is just mimicking other people.

[goddamnit names are a pain]

So people think they are perfect

I see how it is

Such elitist

very wow

[Lunar Origins]

I'm just fucked by life in general when it comes to most things.  My house burned down, my insurance recently denied me coverage on trans stuff because "they don't support transgender and intersex patients", and then there's the fact that I'm transgender in the first place.  My stepfather is emotionally abusive and my mother hasn't tried to remedy that all too much, and my dad is overcontrolling.  I lost everything I owned in that housefire and all of my irl friends left me because I came out as a chick.

 

But, hey, gotta look on the bright side.  With all that shit out of the way, I've got a clean slate.

[Night]

I just fuck myself over, if something goes wrong in my life, it's my fault more often than not. Or at least, that's generally how I view it. 

 

For instance my father always expects far too much out of me, yet he's cast me aside my entire life, especially when I actually needed him. The way I translate it though is that it's my fault for requiring his aid in the first place, since he'll pretty much never give a fuck. I remember him being so "proud" when I would show him one of my drawings as a kid, yet he pretty much laughed at me when I told him I wanted to be a graphic designer, what a fucking joke. And of course you can't forget the time he almost had an aneurysm when he found out I smoked, yet he's been a drunk his entire life.

 

I've been on this site for about 6 years now, this is the first time I've ever posted anything remotely personal. 

[ChaosIncarn]

Hmm...I feel like my life is going nowhere fast, but for whatever reason, that doesn't haunt me too much. Guess I just take it in stride or something. Then again, I'm also afraid of getting no where. Strange way to deal with life.

[Logan Primus]

I'm 19 years old and I've just started studying Degree level Psychology, I feel like I'm probably going to fail.

 

As a result of me having to leave my home country to study, I just moved out of my house and I'm now living alone and I'm afraid I'm going to neglect my mind and body to the point where I won't be able to function like a valid member of the community.

 

Also, I've been single nearly 4 months and I feel like I've lost touch, because before that I managed to have around 10 relationships in 3 years involving varying degrees of self loathing and quality of relationship.